Hideous Lie.

What a hideous lie.
What a cruel world.

I am reminded of these things from time to time.

The stars are not stars,
They are suns.
Not some yellow pointed shaped thing,
that flicker in the night sky,
allowing you to wish on them.
The stars are a lie.

I take a look at an old school photo.

They lied too

I put it back,
since it was considered a memory.
As well as the beginning of a very huge lie.

You can dream to be whatever you wish to be,
dream big!
Thats what we were told,
that was when our eyes still had life.
Innocence.
Purity.
Dream.

But they forgot to tell us,
that Nightmares were also dreams.
Innocence and purity.
Sometimes we envy people who has them,
we envy that they hold on to their white dream cloud.
That they can,
that they are allowed to,
that they will achieve.

While the rest of us,
didn't make it.

It changed over time.

Every little mistake,
every little thing we did.
Every mark,
every grade.
Every step.
Made our dreams,
into Nightmares.

You don't have a bigger dream,
you need to aim higher!!

How could I,
when I couldn't even do a simple task.

Everyone else can do it, so can you!

Its similar to asking a cripple to walk,
when you know he can't.

Then you're not trying hard enough,
you're not recovering fast enough.
You don't want to be stupid and useless do you?

I'm trying,
I'm trying hard.
Can you not see,
I am struggling.

But every time,
I try,
I fail.
This isn't what I can do.

I'm not stupid.
I'm not useless.
This just isn't what I can do.

Yes you can,
you can,
If everyone else can!

But I'm not "Everyone Else".

Arn't you a part of them?
So you can!
After all,
You won't be here if you aren't

No.
I am here because I had to.
Because I had to prove,
that I wasn't "Stupid" or "Useless".
Because I had to grow up to be something,
that would feed me for the rest of my life.
And not something that I wanted to be,
even if I did.
It would be "stupid".

I had turned my dream into a Nightmare,
one that I could not escape.
One that no one could save.

If only our "dreams" were never "stupid",
If only our marks and grades never decided our worth,
If only society was alright with what everyone dreamt of.
Then maybe,
we can change our "Nightmare" into sweets and hopes called "Dream" once more.